Day Two

Wow... these titles are sure original, huh? Well, today has been mostly about thinking about whether or not I should give Buddy up for adoption. I have put Franz through hell over this decision. It seems like it is a cyclical thing... things will go great for a while and then Buddy will do something bad- like peeing on the curtains- and I start thinking about all the reasons why I should give him away. Then he looks at me with those big, beautiful brown eyes and I rub his soft fur and I start feeling like I can't live without him. Like I would die of lonliness and missing him. There is always alot of crying and stress and worrying. It is pretty terrible. And I am always left just as conflicted as before. The problem with making the decision to keep him is that I can always change my mind later. The problem with giving him away is that I can't change my mind later. I think Franz may just strangle me if I change my mind about this once more. (sigh) The joys of having love in your life.

Well, I am going to go get a shower and get ready for my day. I know, it's almost one in the afternoon and I am just now talking about starting my day. Amazing, huh? I am not sure I want a job if life can be this peaceful. :)

More later, faithful readers,

S